I have missed my mother more since Veronica was born than I have missed her in years. Every single day right now I wish I could talk to her. I want to curl up next to her on the couch with a cup of coffee and talk about this amazing thing of what it is to be a mother. I want to hear all about her experience of it and I want to see her anew, now that I am a mother myself.
I want so badly to show her my beautiful daughter, wish more than anything that I could see the two of them together. I want to be able to call her on the days that I'm driving to work and crying because I miss V so much. I want to be able to tell her about every single, new, little thing that V does.
And I want to thank her for being such a good mom, for teaching me how to be a mother too, even though she's not here anymore.
I wrote about this recently for Mamapedia and the piece went up today: Motherless Mothering
